Stitches

Now I've got this problem
In desperate need of repair
I know I need to fix it
before it causes more despair
It's not that hard for anyone else
So why is it that way with me?
I make it complicated
Cause I think it's too hard
Maybe it's not as hard as it seems

The simple act of a hug
Is something I struggle with
I don't exactly know why
but I wish I wasn't like this

This already happened once
I don't want it to happen again
but I'm the one that's causing it
and it stops before it begins

I need some sort of advice
cause I'm not sure how to act
why can't someone help me
help me accept the fact
that I'm causing myself this pain
even though it's hard to admit
but I need a little effort from you
so I can make these pieces fit

Someone please help me
I don't know what to do
Tell me whats right or wrong
cause I don't have a fucking clue

I wish you could just see what I'm seeing
I wish you could just feel why I'm bleeding
maybe then you could understand
exactly whats going on inside my head

I put up a front
and I say I don't need you
But really I know
that I'm dying to see you
I say it doesn;t affect me
But you're just not aware
Cause when no one is looking
I actually care
During the day I'm ready to fight
I dont give a shit, but then it turns night
I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling
trying to just numb
all the pain that I'm feeling