Gragor Joseph's Page

I stare at my sis.
Sickness stares back at me.
I help her out
But only so the hatred I have for her doesn't get exposed.
What is there to hate about her?
Nothing.
Its just hatred that comes from an empty space.
Its just a natural hatred.
Disgraced by the looks of her,
All I could think about is,
"How long does it fuckin take for her to die off some sickness?"
I just think of the past we both lived through together.
I notice I never loved her.
I didn't even consider her to be family.
Here she lay… Continue

School was an eternal curse for me.
I referred to it as blasphemy.
But what I did not notice was that "school" was all around me.
School of speaking.
School of seeking
What is good,
Even if your living in the hood,
And what is bad,
Like X and Crack which turned me mad.
School of books.
School of cooks.
School of determining.
School of extinguishing.
School of gangbangin.
School of slangin.
School of my pants hangin
From the middle of my ass.
I just noticed I am always in a "class."
Each of these… Continue

I can be lavish but I'm mostly insolent.
Lots of times I'm haughty and ignorant.
I know I'm inglorious for saying life is laborious.
I always choose lamentable decisions.
In my life, there's no such thing as preventable indecisions.
I always have a great feeling of malice towards people.
I always want to see a dead body on a steeple.
I'm clearly malevolent and rarely benevolent.
Maybe I just love being an implacable person.
Maybe I just love to sin.
This feeling is unalterable.
I'm just unstable… Continue

I was fucked up when i wrote this so...

Fuckin lame ass niggas
Just blamin shit on niggas.
Betta shut da fuck up cause I'll aim at niggas
Then pull da trigga.
I don’t give a fuck if I'm cold
And make u sick.
U think my skull is thick
Cause shit don’t get thru my head.
Nah, its just that I don’t give a fuck.
I live off luck cause my life sucks.
I know others got it worse than me
But I just don’t give a fuck.
You could have a pocket full of money,
Real talk, I don’t give a fuck.
I don’t care if d… Continue

I'm sorry, o Lord for putting the devil before you.
That must be the perfect reason for letting me be ignored.
I now see I don't deserve an award.
But with your help, I wanna be restored.
I wanna get the reward of being put aboard your perfect world.
I know I made my life a lie.
I know why you did not reply
to my prayers.
It's because I tried to go by the devil's rules
which I know is not right.
But i really wonder why I barely cry
and sometimes look up at the sky and sigh.
I know it's not good… Continue