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My whole life I was living to please me
everything was good for a moment then turned to one more tragedy.
I couldn’t keep it stable for too long
because every time I needed a break couldn’t find nothing to lean on.
If I would have took time for a quiet moment
I would have found that you were whispering to me a private sermon.
Since I am a child of yours and your promises are never obsolete
you never let me stray too far you kept me within a prayers reach.
I was casting you down away from my soul
thinking I could do it all on my own.
All the times I got myself into trouble I wasn’t worshiping you
and If I was not worshiping you, than Who?
If I wasn’t loving the things that you love and If I wasn’t hating the things that you hate
then I now consider that my life was being lived in vein.
What was the purpose of the road that I choose?
To reflect presently where I came from and realize all this time is was YOU.
You knew what I needed to go through to be dedicated in full,
the road I travel now is the one you have bestowed.