Dear Diary

I pour out tears looking for my fears
Try to search so i can erase them & find confidence to replace them
Low self esteem at the age of 14
I feel like i can't make it i strive for the award but he just seems to take it
Its a nightmare & i never been awakened
I'm not even faking I'm in a deep sleep & surrounded by the hated
I try to move on but the love was so strong
Thought we bonded but someone came through & robbed it
I'm detached from my thoughts & while i look for the missing pieces you just stand there looking puzzled
I gave you my all while you gave me a couple
I'd seemed i reached for the stars but the view was to far
I looked
I searched
But the pain just got worst
You pushed me away & still thought that i would stay
You loved by 2's & we had different views
I tried to love but you pushed & shoved
I thought we were above it but turns out we're beneath
I screamed, i tossed, i turned, i dreamed
But when i woke up there was no longer you & me
You tossed my heart inside a wale
Where they never wanna see my proceed only fail
I guess you can call it "Love Hell"
I fell in love but you turned me down
And Everything i wrote in my diary goes back to now