Unprepared For This

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    Shorts, Socks, Your tee-shirt, runny make-up, and a broken heart is all that I am left with when I think of the what we used to be. My phone that has a missed call from so long ago and the last text from you was from even farther in my time line. I wish it was different but what can I do? Waking up for me is difficult only because of my fear of loosing someone else in my life. I would have never thought it was going to be yuou. You know, you once told me to write about you and I told you that I couldnt. Truth is I can really write a bout what is hurting me. I would have never imagined in a million years that the tears and the makeup on my shirt would be because of you. 5 years and you have done this to me twice. Truth to myself is that you abandon me because i am always available to you. I was so unprepeared for what you have done to me. What is it about you that I cant seem to shake you or this feeling you have left me with? I shared my coloring book with you and you took alol the empty pages we were supposed to fill in together. The only thing you have left me with is the puzzles. I can figure them out. Don't get me wrong, but the obvious is not so obvious when all you want is to rewind time and get your way.

       Until then i will be here sadly. In my shorts, socks, your tee-shirt, runny make-up and a broken heart. Screaming and clenching holding and gripping my paining heart. When you return with your appologies and excuses I will atleast hear you out. When my heart reaches out in forgivenesss as it usually does, I will be forced to walk away. Why? Because I am not sure how many fools this world can take.