Ctaretz

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  • I lived a struggle

    I thought about it

    I wrote about it

    It is MY struggle

    I'm the man today because of it

    I bled the brutal truth of it

    I sweat out beads of it

    And it made me shed tears

    I will never get rid of the memories

    I will never get away from it

    I will always remember

    My strength has been  earned...

     

    Life IS struggle

    It's always going to make me sweat, bleed and cry

    But, there's good that comes from life

    There's happiness

    Life is my first marriage

    I can never divorce it

    The good and the bad

    It's an investment

    it's a test

    It's a struggle

     

    I WILL NEVER RUN AWAY FROM IT...

     

    Picture Source: http://www.sodahead.com/living/whats-the-point-of-living-if-we-all-just-die-in-the-end/question-1006779/?link=ibaf&q=&imgurl=http://ec.europa.eu/environment/life/toolkit/comtools/resources/images/life.jpg


    Published: Dec 11 2012 - 9:19pm

    Comments: 6
  • Strain

    The pain

    The sweat

    The tears

    I bleed life

    I breathe life

    I feel the pressure of making a stand

    The stand against my shattered self-confidence

    The feeling that I need to rise up and restore faith

    Seal deals enriched with opportunity

    To get mine

    To the good that is coming to me

    To be overwhelmed with the happiness I've lacked thus far

    To assume a whole new responsiblity

    Responsibility success brings

    I want to afford to have a family

    I want them to not just hear my heart beat for them

    I want them to know that they will never sleep on the street

    They will always have a home

    The lost find no peace

    The lost feel no happiness

    The lost see no success

    I don't want to be the lost

    I want the freedom to get out of my head

    A vacation from angst

    The luxury of living physical, mental and spiritual homeostasis

    I want to live a comfortable life

    I want to live a GOOD LIFE...

     

    Picture Source: http://sarpal.wordpress.com/2012/09/03/understanding-life/

     


    Published: Nov 25 2012 - 9:30pm

    Comments: 16
  • Life isn't always a ball

    Tryin' to get balanced with anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, and adderall

    Medications are the difference between a serene and loud mind

    A soul that becomes difficult to find

    Stuck in my own world of noise

    Destroying all chances of poise

    Repeating the same tune over and over

    Obsessing 'til my head feels like its been hit by a Range Rover

    I speak to someone that helps me find ways to a better life

    A Doctor that gives me feedback on how to cut my sorrow away with a knife

     

    I try to walk tall but sometimes I can't help but to slouch

    I want to stand but can't get off the couch

    I want to get better

    Starving for success--

    "I'm going hungry" like that song sang by Eddie Vedder

    Have I burnt my bridge to happiness?

    I'm tired of all this crappiness...

     

    I say screw being caged in a world of crap

    I'm going to stop off-roading and follow the map

    Keep it simple because complicated is too hard

    Cutting through my obstacles like a razor sharp shard

    I'm going to have my bad days but I can't stop for even a minute

    A bad thought tries to interfere I'm going to rescind it...

     

    Life is what you make of it--

    I'd rather stand tall than slouch and sit...

     

    (Picture Source: http://timblair.net/ee/index.php/weblog/corby_solution_revealed/)

     

     

     


    Published: Nov 5 2012 - 8:15pm

    Comments: 2
  • I tell tales of happiness, sadness, anger, and of being content

    I don't care what anybody else thinks--it's my time well spent

    Purging my thoughts and sharing my feelings in a life that's not easy

    I know that if I get stuck in a negative mindset I'll slip away--negativity is greasy

    I write as if my life depends on every word

    I let the words soar out of my mouth like a beautiful bird...

     

    I'm looking for an extra set of arms to comfort me

    I want to be with someone that wants to see what I see

    How many times do I have to make an attempt at someones heart?

    How many times do I have to make an attempt for a romantic start?

    Is it my rough shell that keeps her from  seeing what's in between my chest?

    I need a set of extra arms to help me rest...

     

    The Higher Power of my understanding tells me to keep pushing on

    My hard work will pay off sometime between the dusk or dawn

    I look up and confirm that I trust him 

    My spirituality keeps my life's lights from going dim

    When I pray rough waters grow still

    Warmth and love gives my heart its fill...

     

    Today I'm certain life will bring me "good"

    I walk tall and confident opposed to insecure--hiding my face with a hood

    Living isn't sitting on my posterior end wondering what could have been

    Living is taking action everyday reaching for the win...

     

    (Picture Source: http://socialeyezer.com/2011/05/20/win-an-exhibit-only-pass-to-blogworld-ny-giveaway/)

     

     

     

     

     


    Published: Nov 3 2012 - 7:26pm

    Comments: 2
  • Our hearts are in sync

    souls intertwined

    Our bodies are locked

    lips touching

    We make love while the moon watches

    the lake's sparkles dance to our rhythm

    Small waves move towards the muddy earth

    the current rubs against the land

    Our orgasms cause a chorus

    crickets, barn owls, and birds sing along

    We are together and our love is free

    in each others arms forever 

    You and me...

     

     


    Published: Nov 2 2012 - 2:27pm
  • True to self

    True to the pride

    No regrets

    No mistakes

    Instincts and reign

    Majestic and gorgeous

    Fast and powerful

    Living off the land

    A lover, a fighter

    A king surrounded by queens

    Nomad allegiance

    Twenty hours of rest

    Playing, nuzzling, grooming before the hunt

    Confidence

    Survival

    Drinking side by side with family

    Defending my Territory...

     

    I wish I lived this way

    So free, so content

    Powerful

    A landlord

    To be gorgeous

    To feel the earth being molded by my feet

    Comfortable in my own skin

    Royalty

    No regrets

    No resentments

    No grudges

    Just survival

    Just my pride and me

    My brothers

    My family

    This is living

     

    To be a lion...

     


    Published: Oct 31 2012 - 7:36pm

    Comments: 3
  • A myriad of dreams

    Will any of them come true

    Taking forever so it seems

    Pushing forward, trying not to feel blue

    Like the fiery red leaves fallen from the trees

    So many visions die and fade away

    I ask my higher power for strength please

    That light on the other side of the tunnel seems far today

    Despite this I keep working hard

    I don't give up the fight

    Praying that I will finally stamp success on my life card

    I still have my aspirations in sight

    That light is still very bright 

     

    That tunnel won't keep me in plight...

     


    Published: Oct 31 2012 - 1:41pm

    Comments: 7

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Poem Struggle
Tuesday, December 11, 2012 - 9:19pm
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Dec 12 2012 - 4:50pm
Poem Good Life
Sunday, November 25, 2012 - 9:33pm
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Poem Reaching For The Win
Saturday, November 3, 2012 - 7:29pm
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Poem Stand Tall
Monday, November 5, 2012 - 8:19pm
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Nov 7 2012 - 8:45am
Poem Our Love Is Free
Friday, November 2, 2012 - 2:30pm
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