About Ctaretz
- Gender
- Male
- Age
- 38
Published by Ctaretz
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I lived a struggle
I thought about it
I wrote about it
It is MY struggle
I'm the man today because of it
I bled the brutal truth of it
I sweat out beads of it
And it made me shed tears
I will never get rid of the memories
I will never get away from it
I will always remember
My strength has been earned...
Life IS struggle
It's always going to make me sweat, bleed and cry
But, there's good that comes from life
There's happiness
Life is my first marriage
I can never divorce it
The good and the bad
It's an investment
it's a test
It's a struggle
I WILL NEVER RUN AWAY FROM IT...
Published: Dec 11 2012 - 9:19pm
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Strain
The pain
The sweat
The tears
I bleed life
I breathe life
I feel the pressure of making a stand
The stand against my shattered self-confidence
The feeling that I need to rise up and restore faith
Seal deals enriched with opportunity
To get mine
To the good that is coming to me
To be overwhelmed with the happiness I've lacked thus far
To assume a whole new responsiblity
Responsibility success brings
I want to afford to have a family
I want them to not just hear my heart beat for them
I want them to know that they will never sleep on the street
They will always have a home
The lost find no peace
The lost feel no happiness
The lost see no success
I don't want to be the lost
I want the freedom to get out of my head
A vacation from angst
The luxury of living physical, mental and spiritual homeostasis
I want to live a comfortable life
I want to live a GOOD LIFE...
Picture Source: http://sarpal.wordpress.com/2012/09/03/understanding-life/
Published: Nov 25 2012 - 9:30pm
Comments: 16
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Life isn't always a ball
Tryin' to get balanced with anti-depressants, anti-psychotics, and adderall
Medications are the difference between a serene and loud mind
A soul that becomes difficult to find
Stuck in my own world of noise
Destroying all chances of poise
Repeating the same tune over and over
Obsessing 'til my head feels like its been hit by a Range Rover
I speak to someone that helps me find ways to a better life
A Doctor that gives me feedback on how to cut my sorrow away with a knife
I try to walk tall but sometimes I can't help but to slouch
I want to stand but can't get off the couch
I want to get better
Starving for success--
"I'm going hungry" like that song sang by Eddie Vedder
Have I burnt my bridge to happiness?
I'm tired of all this crappiness...
I say screw being caged in a world of crap
I'm going to stop off-roading and follow the map
Keep it simple because complicated is too hard
Cutting through my obstacles like a razor sharp shard
I'm going to have my bad days but I can't stop for even a minute
A bad thought tries to interfere I'm going to rescind it...
Life is what you make of it--
I'd rather stand tall than slouch and sit...
(Picture Source: http://timblair.net/ee/index.php/weblog/corby_solution_revealed/)
Published: Nov 5 2012 - 8:15pm
Comments: 2
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I tell tales of happiness, sadness, anger, and of being content
I don't care what anybody else thinks--it's my time well spent
Purging my thoughts and sharing my feelings in a life that's not easy
I know that if I get stuck in a negative mindset I'll slip away--negativity is greasy
I write as if my life depends on every word
I let the words soar out of my mouth like a beautiful bird...
I'm looking for an extra set of arms to comfort me
I want to be with someone that wants to see what I see
How many times do I have to make an attempt at someones heart?
How many times do I have to make an attempt for a romantic start?
Is it my rough shell that keeps her from seeing what's in between my chest?
I need a set of extra arms to help me rest...
The Higher Power of my understanding tells me to keep pushing on
My hard work will pay off sometime between the dusk or dawn
I look up and confirm that I trust him
My spirituality keeps my life's lights from going dim
When I pray rough waters grow still
Warmth and love gives my heart its fill...
Today I'm certain life will bring me "good"
I walk tall and confident opposed to insecure--hiding my face with a hood
Living isn't sitting on my posterior end wondering what could have been
Living is taking action everyday reaching for the win...
(Picture Source: http://socialeyezer.com/2011/05/20/win-an-exhibit-only-pass-to-blogworld-ny-giveaway/)
Published: Nov 3 2012 - 7:26pm
Comments: 2
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Our hearts are in sync
souls intertwined
Our bodies are locked
lips touching
We make love while the moon watches
the lake's sparkles dance to our rhythm
Small waves move towards the muddy earth
the current rubs against the land
Our orgasms cause a chorus
crickets, barn owls, and birds sing along
We are together and our love is free
in each others arms forever
You and me...
Published: Nov 2 2012 - 2:27pm -
True to self
True to the pride
No regrets
No mistakes
Instincts and reign
Majestic and gorgeous
Fast and powerful
Living off the land
A lover, a fighter
A king surrounded by queens
Nomad allegiance
Twenty hours of rest
Playing, nuzzling, grooming before the hunt
Confidence
Survival
Drinking side by side with family
Defending my Territory...
I wish I lived this way
So free, so content
Powerful
A landlord
To be gorgeous
To feel the earth being molded by my feet
Comfortable in my own skin
Royalty
No regrets
No resentments
No grudges
Just survival
Just my pride and me
My brothers
My family
This is living
To be a lion...
Published: Oct 31 2012 - 7:36pm
Comments: 3
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A myriad of dreams
Will any of them come true
Taking forever so it seems
Pushing forward, trying not to feel blue
Like the fiery red leaves fallen from the trees
So many visions die and fade away
I ask my higher power for strength please
That light on the other side of the tunnel seems far today
Despite this I keep working hard
I don't give up the fight
Praying that I will finally stamp success on my life card
I still have my aspirations in sight
That light is still very bright
That tunnel won't keep me in plight...
Published: Oct 31 2012 - 1:41pm
Comments: 7
Activity
| Type | Updated date | Comments |
Last Post |
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| Poem |
Struggle Tuesday, December 11, 2012 - 9:19pm |
6 |
by Ctaretz Dec 12 2012 - 4:50pm |
| Poem |
Good Life Sunday, November 25, 2012 - 9:33pm |
16 |
by Ctaretz Dec 12 2012 - 2:54pm |
| Forum topic |
Why Poetry? Saturday, October 6, 2012 - 6:34pm |
20 |
by Ctaretz Nov 25 2012 - 9:07pm |
| Poem |
Reaching For The Win Saturday, November 3, 2012 - 7:29pm |
2 |
by Ctaretz Nov 7 2012 - 9:13am |
| Poem |
Stand Tall Monday, November 5, 2012 - 8:19pm |
2 |
by Ctaretz Nov 7 2012 - 8:45am |
| Poem |
Our Love Is Free Friday, November 2, 2012 - 2:30pm |
by Ctaretz Nov 2 2012 - 2:27pm |















Comments: 6