Ripped apart feels so wrong,
For each other we both long,
These feelings-we can’t continue to ignore,
So do we go back again and re-explore?

Many times we’ve been down this road,

I am nothing more or less than a pane,
No matter what’s said I feel the same,
You can look past or right through,
It’s the same whichever you do.

A pane is my essential being,

Safely- I shut myself away,
Even though I’d enjoy the light of day,
I can’t enjoy one’s company,
For I do not seek their sympathy.

Safely- I stay locked in my room,
I lie in bed waiting for life to resume,
My eyes close as time drags along,
Sleep has escaped me for so long.

Safely- I wait for storms to slack,
Hoping for this pain to be taken back,
I want the stress of life to fade,

My hand reaches to the sky,
Not quite grasping time gone by,
Hoping-praying for you someday,
To be with me in every way

I’m searching answers that can’t be found,
Making noises that won’t sound,
Without you- I’m a flame of pain,
Praying for you-my soothing rain

I lie awake in my bed,
Thoughts of you roam in my head,
I’d wish all of my days past,

This world is confusing,

Life is a disorganized mess,
It doesn’t make much sense

I can’t express all this pain,
The worst part - I’m to blame,
Why should I be hurting so

I played with fire and got burned,
Misery found me- it’s now my turn,
This life we have is a hell,
Wake me up when it reaches end

These are broken walls I cannot mend,
I want to sit back and yell,

I tell myself-there’s nothing there,
I proceed with a daily affair,
My mind slowly lingers back to thee,
Does my heart know what I can’t see?

I tell myself-it doesn’t seem right,
Thoughts of you come without a fight,
Obviously there is something wrong,
Figuring it out shouldn’t take so long.

I tell myself- think things through,
But how much thinking can one do,

I get my phone and send a text,
Well-now what’s next,
I eagerly wait for a reply,
It’s taking long-I think with sigh

If it wasn’t sent to her,
The eagerness would not occur,
I wonder where is that reply,
She is ignoring-I think with sigh

Only a few minutes pass,
How those minutes seem to last,
I know she will not reply,
My day moves on-but still I sigh