KING OF MY MIND
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I could be a king in seclusion
I could rule inside of my mind
There I don't need interaction
In my kingdom everything is mine
My doctors didn't seem to get it
In my psychosis,
There’s a buried body they could never find
I murdered him many years ago
When he claimed his brain wasn't mine
They called it schizophrenia
My mother said it was the possession of my soul
All I know is after I killed him
I felt I was finally in control
Recently I heard him whisper
I thought it was a trick
So I chose to ignore
But then he started mindlessly screaming
And I knew he'd "risen"
Out of the dirt of my mind's floor
My sleep times started increasing
There are blocks of unanswered time
I know that he was taking over
I could feel his sickness taking over my mind
See I can be a king in seclusion
I will be the only king on my throne
So I took a bottle full of medicine
And handcuffed us in this apartment all alone
This time I know I will kill him
And he'll finally leave me alone
See he can never take over
When this body that’s mine is all gone.
© 2013 Eddie Phillips
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Holy Cow!!!
Wow!!
Something about this one just made me read it again and again.
Amazingly interesting I followed down every path you led me on.
Quite beautiful in its sollitude.
This poem is a concept poem I wrote for a contest on mental illness. I wanted to see if I could write a poem that I was outside of my experience. I am happy you liked it. I have not posted many poems lately and I appreciate the comments.
WOW very well said.My stepdad and brother suffer with schizophrenia.Now my son-inlaw is showing signs.Thank you for this write..
Sheila
I read a little about the disease before I wrote this and I wanted to tell a story about a struggle in a person's mind. This poem tells a tragic story but i wanted it to ring true in some ways. I thank you for connecting with it. It lets me know i wrote the story to the poem well.
You did an excellent job I know because I thought you suffered from this disease.And yes the voices they hear unfortunately tell them to do things such as kill their self and or someone else.Thank you for sharing how this came to be otherwise I would have continued to think it was you who suffured..
you know people really don't see whats out there only what they want to see. but when it comes to this mental business i see cause its written in me and i have dealt with that issue all my life and your on point with it. if people only would open there eyes they would see the truth thats what this site is all about expressing there inner deamons and angels lets just hope all the angels are on top.
I tried not to be disrespectful with this poem. At its base it is a poem about a man fighting his inner demon of mental illness. I told it in a narrative way but I wanted to make it clear that this person was trying to fight it in some way. Thank you for reading and connecting with this poem. I write poety for so many different perspectives that I know it is hard to get a true feel of who I am as a poet.
It was not disrespectful at all. every thing you said was real. i never really share that part of me but when i read what you had posted it got me and i wanted to share. the voices are why i write, some are good most are bad. i have had many mental evaluations but when they asked i always lied i did not want the world to think i was crazy but the truth is, in my life it has caused many problems for me legal and so fourth but i have always tried to keep it in check. i don't like pills so i don't take them gods got me and i trust that. thank you again for posting your poem. it allowed me to jump another hurtle in my life by telling the truth about my mentality to some one other then my family.