Questions?

When I found out that you had a disorder and you gonna need surgrey
I couldnt help it but to cry myself to sleep at night
Trying to figure out why you?
why my little baby boy?
I decide to turn My faith into God hands
and Thats where I stand
he gave me him for a reason
But hes now in my hands
How do I cope with what I am going through?
how do I explain this to him when he gets older?
Let me ask you one question, what else can I do?
I can only play the hand life deals
I just can't imagine how this adorable baby boy feels
but I would never give him up or let him go?
As long as there's hope I say NO
Some people say It’s all meant to be
An innocent child, I don't agree
You can tell sometimes I do feel really bad guilty
But through out it all I know he would be happy and healty
he has a great smile that would lighted up your day
For a moment or two my fears fade away
Do I wonder what life holds in store?
No..I just pray for another day more!
cause I know at the end of the day im truly blessed!