Revelation

Sitting here I ponder the meaning
What's the purpose of the most obvious…life
We are born to die…that's a definite, but
what's in between?

Sleepwalking in a never ending daydream
of the hustle and bustle;
Making ends meet, earning your keep
Raising your children,
Attempting to meet your match
All the while growing older as time progresses.
Attempting to clean up someone else's messes
or was it yours all along?

Listening to another sad song, trying to stay strong.
Optimistic while realizing you don't know much
and your heart just ain't in it.
Then you meet a soul who throws you for a loop.
A creature different from the others you encountered;
His reflection is that of yours seemingly opposite.
How is that possible?
His language makes you quiver.
The message he delivers is raw and real
with a quirky appeal.

You are drawn even closer to him,
beyond the surface you realize you need him.
Beyond attraction
(although that's what wove the tiny web of desire around your mind)
Every word typed on the other end
as well as every response was like a beautiful chord of music

When joined together it blended to be a perfect piece.
Or is that just what your mind creates
in an event to cover up the obvious?
That you are just plain scared.
Scared of falling so deeply.
Scared of caring too much and not receiving it in return,
that you purposely keep your inner most thoughts to yourself.

Who are you fooling?
Him?
You?
Perhaps it's just that you are still growing, learning and being
For a while you had forgotten how.
So caught up in a constant whirling motion of catastrophe
When the dust settled you realize you’re exactly where you are
meant to be,
Longing for that deeply spiritual, empathetic, kind, and caring being.
The thought of his mere touch makes you sink into oblivion.
You forget all reality;
It's too intense, you can barely speak.
You want to yell but you can't.
You can only allow the salty tears to roll uncontrollably
The sensation brings you back to earth.

Somehow you've thrown him for a loop…now he can't understand
Its actually quite simple to you.
Power was delivered in a way which you hadn't thought it would.
Beyond the physical, he's begun to break down the wall you built
for emotional protection in a few strokes.
This can't be happening you tell yourself,
You can't be falling
Damn
I did....