Sanity Refined

Finally resting my mind, laying still in my bed
After endless hours of being trapped in my head.
It’s almost like every night I close my eyes I freeze
So I curl up away from the bitter cold breeze
I ‘awake’ once again with my prayers denied
The door cracked open and someone laid by my side
Her back to my eyes, without a single word spoken
Lost in devotion cuz I’ve never left my promises broken
I tried to reach out, but my hands were weighed down
Tried to scream out, but my mouth refused to make sound
Reaching for air cuz I couldn’t manage to breath.
Along with the truth behind what I used to believe,
My lungs slowly collapsed, leaving sanity refined.
As an unknown shadow silently crept from behind
My eyes chased faith, begging to wake up
Hoping to God that just once trust would break luck
A disgusting moment when that stranger turned to me blurred
Constantly repeating the last words I’ve honestly heard
‘Don’t you get it, I’ve never slept alone’
All those tears I kept, she had for her own
The shadow of death too close to forget
Locked eyed and paralyzed with my lonely regret
Again I snapped out of sleep, dreading what goes on in my head
I guess I’ll try to hide from my dreams.. and keep my eyes open instead.