I just want to get this off of my chest
because this matter has just had me so distressed
first let me start by saying thank you
thanks to all of the stupid people who
My thoughts move, quicker than lightning
In desperation i chase them, but now im fighting
Im fighting my mind, searching for the word
the word that shows my thought, but this is absurd
I see red hate in that mirror
I see the flaws of myself
My lifes regrets and
My wants and desires in that mirror
I see the small breakouts and the nose that I don't want to have I see the
I don't love you like I used to
I no longer find that smile irrisistable
I don't fall in love again when you flip your hair
When you kiss me there is no fireworks
It doesn't matter what I do
Because one plus one never makes two
And i know that when its me and you
there's always that wall of silence that my voice just cant get through and
My love is silent
It is my dirty little secret
It is my locked-in-the-closet secret
That love that only exists behind closed doors and closed eyes
Nobody hears me call you my boo
Yea I grew up in the hood
So i always knew what was really good
Yea the sounds of gunshots and drag racing were my lullabies
and the kids who got locked up was how i learned my goodbyes
Yea I grew up in the hood
Yea the sounds of gunshots and drag racing were my lullabies
Its true that my soundtrack as a kid was the sirens and wails of the cops
I am...
Thats all I have to say
I need not put any other words
I just am
I am too many things to list
I am a poet
I am talented
I am generous
I am strength when someone needs it
i never lived the hood rat's life
I've never carried a gun or a knife and
I never had to smoke to get high
but thats what people always see when they drive on by
